It is very easy for me to sit here and tell you what God has done in my life. I think just about any parent whose child has walked away from brain cancer could write a book about what God has done in their life, and maybe one day I will write a book. But the question I am looking at today is what is He DOING in my life?
If I am going to be honest, it is much harder to look at what He is doing. I could talk about all the tiny and huge miracles He is at work doing in Joel’s life, yet then I am avoiding talking about MY life.
In my life I am wrestling with Him over some old issues and some new ones that He reveals to me. For the last eight years or so, I have had a laminated piece of card stock in my room that reads;
humble,
gentle, patient,
understanding &
peaceful
That has been my desire as a Momma to answer my children in a gentle, patient, manner taking time to understand them. To create a peaceful environment by being a person who exudes peace, while humbling my self just as my Saviour did to be a servant of all. It hangs on my wall to this day because I have yet to perfect those qualities. Just tonight as I was doing dishes I bellowed, “Joshua, Joel and Hannah in here now! ” Then as I began to correct their behaviour I continued at my impressive volume only to realize they were all standing in front of me and there was no need to be so loud. Once I began talking in my ‘patient, gentle voice,’ Samuel began to holler, hmm where did he pick that up?
I could have just as easily set down the dishcloth and walked in to the next room and gathered my little ones around me and had the same conversation. I am learning each day. What is God doing in my life? He is slowly and patiently chipping away at the old me and carefully forming me into the image of His son, into the woman who He sees in me. It isn’t always pretty and sometimes the work gets a bit messy but He faithfully works away at reshaping me.
“being confident of this very thing, that he who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Jesus Christ” ~ Philippians 1:6
What is He doing in your life….?
Pin It
Thank you for posting this honest blog, straight from your heart. I feel the same inside me as you. I can tell a lot beautiful things God has done in our family despite 'heavy weather'. But inside me I'm fighting against many giants: crankiness, selfishness, etc.
I always dreamed that I would be a sweet, patient mother.
Thank you for this blog that makes me aware that my dream is still alive. I bring my lost dream to God and believe He will help me. A second chance, or a third, fourth …
I can relate. I totally get this "It isn’t always pretty and sometimes the work gets a bit messy but He faithfully works away at reshaping me." It isn't always pretty, you are so right. I've had some not so obvious chipping and then some that I can completely remember for the rest of my life. I look back and can't believe that was ME. Dying to self is such a hard task, but the joy that comes with it is completely indescribable.
My recent post Jeremiah and the BIG dump trucks
I think all of us get caught up with our children and rarely take time to look at ourselves…in your case God's role in your life vs your sweet boy's. Good for you for realizing that. and considering it. I think I forget to all too often.
My recent post Everything for Mama
Ohhh, this is good. I love that He slowly chips away and prunes us into the people He created us to be! This is a great reminder that we aren't floundering out there alone, but He is present to help us with the growth and changes we need to make in our lives. Love this post. Thanks for sharing!
Blessings!
~Erin
Thank you for sharing this, and being so transparent. I love Galatians 5:20, which reminds me to be led by the Holy Spirit, and not my own evil inclinations. I find it's a daily battle to resist my old selfish and easily impatient self and to be led my Christ alone…but it is always worth it and better for me and everyone around me if I do!
Oh this is where I am at right now, thanks for posting this, just know that God is with us at all times!!
We are tryinng to answer that question right now. My husband is out of work for the second time since we have been married. We finally felt like we were back on track to our goals and then… this. I do thank him every day for my family and know that no matter what as long as I still have my husband and my son, everything will work itself out. Great post, thanks.
I am familiar with that kind of struggle my husband was down sized twice in about a year and 1/2 the second time when he called home to tell me he\’d been laid off I started to laugh and told him that isn\’t funny, only for him to tell me it was no joke. I couldn\’t believe it had happened again to us. I am praying for you and your family!!