If you have been reading here for awhile you’ll remember last year Dave and I actually made plans for our wedding anniversary, 3 months before our anniversary I had bought tickets to see Michael W. Smith and DOWN HERE.  I had made arrangements with my parents for our kids to sleep over.  We were going to have a nice dinner and then go to the concert. If you want to read my sad tale 😀 click HERE.

At any rate, as I enjoy DOWN HERE I was listening to the song, ‘Here I Am’  and I thought if I was more creative I could have written this song.  I don’t mean that in a condescending way, I simply mean that it speaks to my heart, and there is a deep understanding.  So here it is for your listening pleasure, as well as, the lyrics. (To hear the video scroll to bottom and turn off the playlist first.)

Here I Am
from the Downhere album “Ending Is Beginning”
Germain/Martel

Sometimes your calling, comes in dream
Sometimes it comes in the Spirit’s breeze
You reach for the deepest hope in me
And call out for the things of eternity

But I’m a man of dust and stains
You move in me so I can say…
            
Here I am, Lord send me
All of my life I make an offering
Here I am, Lord send me
Somehow my story is a part of your plan
Here I am

When setbacks and failures and upset plans
Test my faith and leave me with empty hands
Are You not the closest when it’s hardest to stand?
I know that You will finish what You began

And these broken parts You redeem
Become the song that I can sing…

Here I am, Lord send me

Overwhelmed by the thought of my weakness
And the fear that I’ll fail You in the end
In this mess, I’m just one of the pieces
I can’t put this together but You can

Here I am, Lord send me

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Now why am I sharing all of this today, well because, this song seems to be speaking to where I am at right now.  A year ago today life was busy but it didn’t seem too messy, it didn’t seem like it was in pieces.  We were concerned about Joel’s headaches but we were thinking that it was probably something like a diet change was needed or maybe glasses.  Over the last year there have been moments when our lives have felt like a total mess, that our lives were just a bunch of broken pieces, ‘setbacks and failures and upset plans.’   Weakness at times felt like a continual state of existence.

Amongst all those feelings, we were overwhelmed with our need for God, not just to fix things, but to be in relationship with Him.  Which brings us to our desire to be used by Him.
‘Here I am, Lord send me